Wednesday, January 24, 2007 @8:58 PM
i've really realise how fast two weeks past.. it seems like only yest when i came back from sch n hong meng told me tat joshua was here.. the clear difference between the amount of noise level and the number of people in my house can be seen.. i can hear the clock chiming 9pm.. no one is bugging me to let him play maple.. and no one coming to disturb me while im using the computer.. no one for me to hug at night.. no more calling of dawn jie jie every night.. no more cute aunty around.. no one shouting bang bang bang!!! no one messing up the whole dining table during meals.. no one shouting for the other to do kumon.. no more toys all over the floor.. no more luaggage and kiddy bags in the center hall and on the sofa.. no more piggybacking for the night.. no one to lie on me and fall asleep.. so much happenings over the past two weeks.. i miss them.. i really do...sometimes.. its only when people are not around that u realise the value of their love and the amount of love u have in them.. its also when these loved ones are not around that u feel the emptiness inside of u.. although there will not be anyone snatching computer with me to play maple.. no one to make me so tire out at night.. no one to make so much noise and wanting me to play cars with him.. i know deep down.. i want them to be around.. its really when such things are gone that u feel that.. actually.. such things are not that bad afterall.. its not tat bad to have people snatching the com with me to play maple.. its not tat bad to get tire out although i've bathe myself so nice smelling.. and its not tat bad to be playing cars with him.. if only i've let him maple longer.. if only i'll let them tire myself out more.. if only i've played cars with him longer.. today.. went to the airport to see sigu, josh n joel back to perth.. i dunno if i should be sad or happy.. as they walk into the departure gate.. i see josh tearing.. sigu also teared a bit... and joel.. happily waving bye.. haha.. big contrast.. the last breakfast of their trip this time round we had together was at BK.. joel was eating so happily.. he tried to make a face on the bread with the hashbrowns.. josh was happily eating his burger.. i glad they are happy.. coz i'll be happy if they r happy.. i'll be happy if people around me are happy.. i must learn and i will learn that happiness comes not only from myself.. but its through the people around me that i am happy too.............