Saturday, April 28, 2007 @11:40 PM
im happy and not very happy..happy coz my bro called back just now.. haven seen him for a week.. i miss him =Dnot happy coz.. i feel tat im not myself.. im not wad i wan to be.. i dun feel like who i am.. especially when im someone who is easily sensitive.. i dun like e feeling of not being myself..here is e story of Life..Life is a happy person. Life loves bringing happiness to people. Life loves seeing people smile and happy. Life meets many many people. at bus stop, mrt stations and at work. Life talks to them although Life may be a bit bit bit shy. Life is smiling almost every time, but Life gets angry easily too. Life appears emotional. happy, angry, naggy, sad, talkative. it can be just one second when Life is happy, but the next second, Life can be angry. Life don't want to feel this way, but Life just feels this way. but in front of Life's friend, Life appears happy and cheerful because Life wants to be happy and cheerful.Life had a group of friends. they brought Life many wonderful times together. Life was happy with them. but Life no longer find so much fun in Life's friends. that group of Life's friends are moving further away. Life has no idea why. Life changes. Life has a big time attitude problem. but Life refuses to change. or rather, Life do not know how and what to change. Life is never the same. Life is lost. Life is not unhappy with life. Life feels tired. Life wants to go somewhere nice and peaceful. but Life still want everyone to be happy. Life is not thinking of dying. but Life needs some time away from the busy, hectic and tiring world. Life is very sensitive and Life is now trying to change... hopefully for the better...sounds stupid. but tat's life.
Thursday, April 26, 2007 @8:40 PM
okok.. so my last post went missing.. wha.. anyway.. i was saying....now tat im unable to go back for np and that there is no longer np trainings, i no longer feel tat im an instructor there.. not bcoz of tat two reasons of coz.. but bcoz im not included in e unit.. n its not exactly e oc's fault.. bcoz i dunno anything about cc.. like e meetings and things like tat.. tho i have no experience in tis area and i do not expertise in tis field, its still a big comp coming up for our unit.. i suppose as instructor i deserve to know smth isn't it?? but e planning goes ahead with hazi and she does not update me or anything.. its like as tho i have stand down or wad.. sounds like im bossy.. but i mean.. i do have e right to know.. anyway.. i told her bout her squadmates' authority thingy.. she din reply to wad i say on msn.. and i suppose she is unhappy about it.. im quite sure she is.. although there is not much evidence.. haiz.. but its true tat e other volunteers cant have the same 'priviledge' and 'authority' as instructors.. i dun even know when are they having meetings and things like tat.. haiz..okok.. tats for now.. ciao~!!!p/s. kan emailed me to wish me happy belated birthday!!! XD
Wednesday, April 18, 2007 @7:38 PM
wooh.. third day of sch.. hmmm.. some things are obviously not e same.. its like... not so close to some ppl liao.. which im not surprised.. but disappointed.. or rather.. upset.. but nvm.. at least still can talk kind..went back tk today to get e camp proposals... saw e file.. quite thin.. but thought mayb everything inside so its ok.. obviously i forsee some proposals which are not up.. which is true.. but ok lah.. tot give them til mon.. or at least they said by mon.. and they haven done e activities for sec 3s yet... hmmm.. well done huh... i tot i like tell them dunno how many times liao.. anyway.. they went off for lunch coz they had lessons aft tat.. n it was raining.. so i was sitting outside np room looking through e proposals.. horrors!! they use rough paper to print the schedule and proposals.. so.. tat rough paper is suppose to be a draft right.... so it means everything is not finalised yet right.. so why hand up?!?! at first i thought nvm.. den i carry on looking through... they use e wrong proposal format... they use e weekly proposal format... and e best thing is not everyone uses e same format!! so wad does this say??? their posting.. try to hint to them alr.. but still no change.. no f&b dept.. they just using law dept to do f&b.. nvm bout tat.. campfire.. field gonna do... so e camp cc is like not in charge of anything ah?? (i just tot of tis now....) they only take e sec3s for drills and things like tat???? in e paper, it states tat sec 3 ics are in charge of e well being of e cadets n ncos.. firstly, they are not ncos yet.. secondly, are they tat capable of taking care of so many ppl?? only 2 of them to look aft every single cadet and nco in e camp... a bit not right rite?? so im suppose to look aft all e ncos plus cadets and e officers are suppose to look aft all e instructors, ncos and cadets???? den e squad ics for wad?? group ics for wad?? ncos for wad??? argh.. suppose to have brought back e proposals to go through.. but i seriously dun like e state of the proposals.. its seriously messy.. and its definitely not my expectations too high bcoz i took june camp last year and e standard was so much better.... at least.. they din give me drafts to look through.... its very disappointing.. summore cc batch.. haiz.. kids nowadays........
Tuesday, April 17, 2007 @10:46 PM
woots!! grumpy is happy.. haha.. sounds wrong.. but grumpy is really happy.. after laughing like mad on e train when niff n joan cant make out wad i was trying to say.. haha.. it just suddenly make me feel like laughing ma.. haha.. sorry ah.. anyway.. for more details on wad happen on 14/4 tat grand day tat turned me 18 and 17/4 which is today when i went to get e free ben&jerry ice cream, pls refer to joan's blog.. lol.. she update liao.. lazy update =psch start liao.. wooh.. sian.. haha.. i bought quite a few things today.. my hp pouch, belts, sun yan zi n tank album.. it was gg at 2 for $18.. haha.. so cheapo right.. but it says original cds n vcds.. haha..oh.. no more deadline le.. fate told me to let him decide when e time comes.. this was e conversation between me n fate..fate: there are many fishes in e ocean..me: but i like dolphins...fate: dolphins still exist.. dun worry..me: ok..okies.. tis is random.. but if u understand.. good for you.. if not.. den its ok.. bcoz fate is fate.. fate is not anyone i know.. lol.. =p
Friday, April 13, 2007 @11:50 PM
Friendswhat are friends??how do you define friends??someone whom you can talk to??someone who understands you??someone who will be there for you??how much do you know about your friend??or rather your very good friend??your best friend??one word to describe them, what will it be??it occurs to me that there will be many friends you will make in your life..but how many are true to you??how many can you be true to them??who can you trust??and who will trust you??how is your good friend or best friend like??smart?pretty?slow?understanding?trustworthy?alert?nice?caring?what is the aspect of a friendship??to trust each other??or to tell her off one day before her birthday??it takes time to build up a strong friendship...how long will mine take??10 years??20 years??my aspect of a friendship, the vaules of my good friend...trusthonest/truenicecaringunderstandinglovablemy mind-reader (a psychologist's psychology)and many many more...how many seasons/weathers must go pass before you will finally realise.. oh.. this is the friend that weathered through thick and thin with me.. i must treasure her... how long will you need?? by that time, will she still be around??but if you cant forsee a strong friendship coming up and you're trying to build one... what will happen if one day she just snap back at you... how will you feel??its quite saddening.. the eve of my birthday... 2 more mins.. my resolution for this year is to stay happy every day.. and so.. it shall be =)happy birthday dawn...
Thursday, April 12, 2007 @11:45 PM
it suddenly came to my mind tat... actually... i dunno anyone well... not even myself... i dunno... but i'm just speechless... just finish reading joan's n her cousin's blog... it's touching... but tat is when i realise... i may not understand joan... so sorry if i did make u irritated =X its very random... but e sudden thought... i realise tat im not putting in effort to do anything well... and tat includes talking to a person... i cant rem e things they like... he and she... i dunno if they will like it... i dunno everything... i am like so lost now... i guess like wad hiromi said... peter pan syndrome... and yes... i am happiest when my tat syndrome is taking effect on me... dun have to know wad syndrome... because i just want to let me and myself know for e time being before i share it with others... no reason why... but i thought... i have a new word for myself...tmr last day of work... jia you ba... =)
Tuesday, April 10, 2007 @11:37 PM
hey joan.. how are u?? take care k.. dunno wad to tell u today.. so i din msg u at all.. but do take care.. i'm always here u know.. =)been gg out with eliza.. wha!!! she made me spent lots on shopping and i made her spent lots on food!! wahaha!!!went out aft work with hiromi.. haha.. we went to play arcade!! woots!! smth i cant do with jieting n joan coz they both dun like.. =p wahahaha.. den saw annie.. it was raining so heavily aft work ah.. went marina sq to eat.. e claypot rice is nice.. muahaha.. but a big flying ant attack hiromi's dinner.. so tats it.. lol..take care ppl.. quite a few ppl i know is sick.. take care :)) <--double chin XD
Sunday, April 01, 2007 @1:40 AM
wooh.. haven updated for a very long time.. wha.. time flies very quickly.. tmr will be e last day of me at work at JL.. i will kinda miss tat place although it brings some bad memories like irritating customers and troublesome staff.. and of couse e friends i made there.. hmmm.. memories n experiences will never be forgotten ba.. *woots*
[[end of e year... tats my deadline... before e deadline... no one goes into that place of mine... by then... may there be an end...]]