Friday, May 09, 2008 @12:16 AM
im totally drained..
no longer have that amount of energy to carry on..
and i totally agree..
that its all in the mind..
can i like surrender??
and give up??
i feel so sorry for liang ying, jia qi and jieting..
they have done nothing to deserve a team member like me..
and seriously..
their grades shouldnt suffer because of me..
and my grades shouldnt be fantastic because of them..
this feeling sux!
and i hate myself for it..
i so badly wanna get out of this sucky life..
this "slack" (if that is what most ppl see) kinda life..
but its all in the mind as what most ppl will say..
and unfortunately..
i lost control of my mind..
and i am in a terrible state..
unless i do something about myself now..
meaning at this point of time in my life..
gosh dawn..
u're terribly useless!